One step in a time

Keep walking keep walking and keep walking till you reach your way out.
That time you will have no idea how come you overcome your problems.

I overheard the quote above so many times.
and I know and I know...that it should be the answer
Yet, it's very hard for me to put it in action

I just want to learn it in a simple way.
Take one step in a time, and keep continuing with another step, and keep continuing with another step..
again another step...again and again and again..

Keep trusting Him though it might be one simple step..
Lead my step today Lord Jesus

♥ u always...,
ruth

my birthday gift

Dear Lord,

I am really blessed for whatever You have done thru the people around me..

I am grateful for the verse You've given to me via Genjek.

John 14:14

Indonesian: "Jika kamu meminta sesuatu kepada-Ku dalam nama-Ku, Aku akan melakukannya."

Amplified: "[Yes] I will grant [I Myself will do for you] whatever you shall ask in My Name [as presenting all that I AM].

Maybe, for the Amplified version, it would be clearer if we include the previous verses (verse 12 and 13).

"I assure you, most solemnly I tell you, if anyone steadfastly believes in Me, he himself be able to do the things that I do; and he will do even greater things than these, because I go to the Father.

And I will do [I Myself will grant] whatever you ask in My Name [as presenting all that I AM], so that the Father may be glorified and extolled in (through) the Son [Exod 3:14]"

And AMEN. You show me that You have granted whatever I have asked, whether its only 5 seconds before or years before. As long as i believe in You, You will give me the power and You Yourself will strengthened me, empowered me to be a blessing , thus Father may be glorified and extolled in (through) my life as well.

I am spechless Lord Jesus.

Thank You for Your blessings and visons for these 29-year journey in my life. And I know You won't stop here. Coz You have said, that You will not leave me as orphans (comfortless, desolate, bereaved, forlorn, helpless)  -- John 14:18.

More than that, You said that You Yourself will do for me. Who am I Lord that You give me LOVE abundantly thus I can only fall in my knees. Trembled by Your Love.

Anyway Lord, yesterday i heard lovely song, "Mengejar Hadir-Mu" by GMB (Giving My Best).  The song touched my heart so much. It will be my prayer from today onwards. Catch Your Presence in my life.

I will post the lyric of the song in the next post.

Once again Lord Jesus, thank you for EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THINGs that You have done in my life.

I love You so much Lord...

So Excited

Oh God...

am so excited...
what else You have prepared for me?
what next?

am so eager to know what is in Your mind
I do really want to be by Your side

no no...

actually
All I want is to walk with You,
even if all I have to do is following behind Your back
I want to follow You all the time
all seconds I have...
I won't go if You are not walking in front of me.

Please....
Do walk in front of me
and i will Lord, follow You WHEREVER You go....

<3

luv u much,
ruth

Tidak Menyangka

I do give thanks to God for whatever He's done in my life.

Really! He, who started the good things in our life, will not stopped until it has been fulfilled.
He really is a God that keep His promise to me.

huehehehe

I do really love You Lord!

You made all the people surrounds me, help me with all of their hearts and minds.

I have never ever think about that before.
It is a miracle that you made their hearts changed.
You are my everything Lord Jesus

Thank you Papa....


I love You, and will always do...


gbu,
ruth

dan tiba tiba ia menyeruak keluar....

mungkin aku terlalu capek
air mata yang sesaat tadi aku bilang tidak bisa menetes
tiba tiba turun
mengalir
membasahi pipiku

aku bukan orang yang kuat
dan aku bukan orang yang tegar
aku cuma mau jadi hambaNya

hamba yang bisa dibanggakan oleh DIA

oya.
sebenernya, mungkin karena aku barusan membaca postingan lamaku.
tentang cintaku.
tiba-tiba saja aku jadi merindukan dia lagi..
tiba-tiba saja aku ingin lari ke keluargaku
tiba-tiba saja air mata itu tanpa ijin menyeruak keluar

terakhir aku menitikkan airmata untukmu
adalah ketika aku membaca komen teman2mu tentang betapa mereka masih merindukan kehadiranmu.

aku mungkin berusaha lari dari kenyataan
atau aku tidak merasakan kenyataan itu
aku tahu kamu sudah ada bersama Papa
dan aku tahu kamu bahagia

tapi aku sekarang ga tau kalo kangen kamu harus bagaimana

^^
Meme,
aku sayang kamu
sebenernya aku pengen nulis banyak tentang kamu
apa yang oc pelajari dari kehidupan seorang meme
apa yang Tuhan ijinkan oc belajar dari kehilangan meme sayang

tapi semenjak di sini, oc terlalu cape dan banyak kegiatan.
apakah supaya oc ga mikir kamu ya?

Ah, sudahlah..hehe
yang jelas..kami semua
Papa, Mama, Cece, Kohan, Olin, Adiknya Olin, Koko, Nunung, Oce, dan semua temen2nya meme, semua sayang sama meme....

:)

i luv u sista...and i will always do... ^^

ruth

need u much

Oh , Lord Jesus

I need You so much.....
I don't know how to go through it
I surrender to You Lord

really

I have no wisdom
Please..gimme Your wisdom Lord

I do need You so much...
T_T

feel like i want to cry
but there's no tears drop

feel like i want to stop here
but i know i have to continue until it finished

feel like i want to run away
but i know i have to stay

feel like i want to go back to my old life
but i know i have to grow
i need to take a new step
having another faith leap

Jesus...
Thank You that you have sent so much angels to come to help me
^^

Please, strengthened me more
Please, teach me to trust You more
Please, teach me to be Your servant more
Please, teach me to be Your humble servant more


in the mids of online FORMS T_T
*somebody please help me*

gbu,
ruth

Jadi kayak gitu?

Kenapa aku selalu ga rela
ketika orang yang aku sayangi
tidak mendapatkan apa yang *menurutku* sepadan dengannya?

Apakah ternyata aku tidak sesederhana yang aku pikirkan
Apakah ternyata aku sebegitu sombongnya
Apakah ternyata aku suka men-judge orang hanya karena beberapa kali lihat

Tapi hatiku sakit
Tapi hatiku tidak rela

Apakah tidak boleh aku berharap kau dapat yang terbaik
Apakah tidak boleh aku berdoa kau dapat yg sepadan

Buat aku, bukan karena aku
tapi karena aku tidak rela
pada akhirnya kamu tidak bahagia
Aku ingin rencanaNYA dlm hidupmu digenapi
dan kau hidup bahagia

Aku tidak tahu
apakah bila aku ada di posisimu
apakah aku juga bertahan
apakah aku juga akan keras kepala
mempertahankan apa yang sulit dipertahankan

mungkin...
karena cinta itu bodoh
mungkin...
karena aku sama keras kepalanya denganmu

tapi kita hidup bukan semata-mata karena cinta yang bodoh
ada tujuan di balik masing-masing hidup kita
hidup bukan semata-mata karena cinta semu
tapi karena Tuhan punya tujuan buat hidupmu, sayang...

relakan apa yang harus direlakan
lepaskan apa yang harus dilepaskan
supaya kamu dapat melihat dunia yang lain
supaya kamu dapat melihat dunia luar

aku hanya berdoa
supaya kamu bisa tahu
apa yang jadi tujuan hidupmu

ps: Pa, plis..berikan yang terbaik buat dia..PLIS....PLIS.....aku tahu aku ga mungkin bisa memaksakan kehendakku dalam kehidupan org laen, tapi Pa, plis...jadikan kehendakMU....

gbu,
ruth

cee....

hanya dengan sebuah kata..."ceee"

cukup untuk membuat aku berhenti - tertegun
memutuskan untuk sekadar menyapa balik
ato tidak merespon sama sekali

akhirnya hari itu
karena aku juga merasa kalo kami harus berbicara
aku menanggapi juga

kemudian karena ini...
kemaren aku dan kamu sama2 terharu...

hehe

emang sayang banget sama adikku yang satu ini
dan tiba-tiba semua rasa kangen yang menyesaki dada ini menyeruak keluar...
air mata itu tiba2 mengalir dr pelupuk mataku

*cengeng emang aku...haha*


aku tetap sayang ama kamu - ama kalian
dan akan tetap begitu

jaga hati ya
berfungsilah dalam panggilanmu!
doaku akan selalu menyertaimu adikku

gbu,
ruth

A Prayer

Lord,
strengthened me
gimme courage

Sometime You asked me,
"Do u really want it to be happen?"

Yes, I do Lord

Then You asked another question,
"Will you regret it later?"

What i can reply is:
NO, I won't.
Coz, I believe, once You let Your work starts, it means that You will pour out your blessings.

Can I Lord?
Pleaseeee ^^

Amin.

ruth,
searching waiting longing for Him

Sementara Itu....

Lord Jesus, i knew that You are the only One that knew me inside out

Hehehe

I love You so much, and will love You till the end ^^

Thank you for alway be by my side.
I really give thanks to You
For whatever You have done in my life

I will wait
I will wait
and I will

Cause I know that there's a HOPE
You make ALL Things New!

hehe

i love You
and will always luv U


gbu,
ruth

Preyer (a pre prayer)

Here is a prayer from my beloved brother :) after he left some messages in my mobile and ym . huhkah.... so merepotkan, haha...anyway.tengkiu bro..... pk 13.18 (february 6th, 2008)

As i promised i'll pray for you hehehehe
I'll pray in English, just in case Singaporean God speaks English hahahahahaha..
Or it would be better in Singlish???? hahahaha

I wrote in the tittle it's a preyer (just in case i'll pray for you later, again, before you fly)
hehehehe

Father in Heaven... Our Lover... Our King...Our BESTest Friend...
You know what She wants lah..
You granted every single litle wishes she had when she was small uptill now...
Now I'm just very excited, too excited maybe...
Once again You prove your beloved daughter's faith

What we can do here is just make this farewell is not just a good bye...
It is a Good Start....
You Guide her in every lil step she make there...
every decision she will made will be a very wise one as Her name, as Your wisdom itself...

You are building her to make her Life yor way to show this nation, this world, this universe That You are GOD
You are the ONE....

Her Life is as fragile as your Arm, which means her life is not fragile at all...
Cause You'll be there... You have been there long before She knew You are...
She'll be TOUGH coz of you

Father...
Thank You Lord, you made her here blessing us very much with your Love
Thank You Lord... She will be a blessing in Singapore as You give her the wisdoms to bless us here...

We believe She wil be a BIG WAVE for your KINGDOM to glory in this world...

IN GOD we trust....

Singapore is just as small as Tuban in Her eyes.. so that She can do every little BIG THINGS with You by her side...

ONCE AGAIN IN GOD we trust

AMEN!!!!

:)